I keep saying this might be a bad idea. Maybe it is a stupid, pointless idea. I see a few possibilities. Success (I learn to interact with people without needing a week to recover from the terror and exhaustion, I get a few games in, I get a few people to start playing Malifaux around here). Or, nothing changes. Or, I make an idiot of myself and retreat, again, again, into my cave, stigmatized and less likely to venture out again anytime soon.